For the first time since I started this blog, I don’t have any life list items on deck. Life in the C+M house is all sorts of serious right now. I’m 28 years old, and truthfully, I feel like I am just starting to see that adulthood has arrived and I need to board the train.
It’s been a long time coming. The past five years I’ve really just been a kid pretending to be an adult– playing house. A lot of my life list is about starting to act like an adult (frame my prints like an adult would do, re-open my own savings account, make more than 50k in a year, etc.) but it’s been hard for me to get there. The way I handle my day-to-day life is still so childish. I don’t save money. I don’t take jobs because they’re good for the family– I take jobs because I want them. I have a hard time eyeing long-term goals. I leave dishes in the sink. I don’t put gas in the car until the very last possible moment. I’ll tell you one thing I’m doing that a real adult would never do: My blush broke apart and all the pink powdery remnants fell onto my vanity. Instead of cleaning it up, I just tap my blush brush onto the vanity and apply from there. Gross, right? That’s something a kid would do. Not a real adult.
But the last few months or so, I’ve been really craving being an adult. Something about Saturn returning and being 28 or something….I’m just so ready for adulthood. For the first time, I can actually see past tomorrow and into my whole long life. I want to do what’s good for the little family I’m building (don’t get too excited family, I don’t mean kids yet!)
So, some things are changing. #1: I’m no longer working as a barista at the Kafe. It’s fun, but I’m not needed there anymore and I could make more money elsewhere while still maintaining my ownership role at the Kafe. Thus, #2: I’m getting a real 9-5 job, where I’ll be getting real paychecks and I can actually save some of it. And then, the real long-term goals can happen: #3: I’m applying for grad school. I’ve always wanted to be a therapist. It’s my calling, and it’s been so obvious that I’ve kind of tried to ignore it over the years. But, the time has come, and I’m applying for the Fall 2012 semester. It’ll take five or so years until I get my license. And you know what? A few months ago, I wouldn’t have been able to think that long-term. It wouldn’t have been immediate enough. But now? I’m so boarding that adulthood train. And I’m stoked.
So, where does this leave my blog? I think once I get a jobby job and the dust has settled I’ll have more time to do fun stuff. But right now I’m working towards some of the more important life list items, like saving money. Because, if you’ll notice, nearly half of my life list is about traveling, and you can’t travel without the moolah. So there we go. All aboard the adulthood train, headed for AWESOME.